Not giving up
But it feels really shitty to not see something to the end…
Tonight was to be my last burlesque class. The instructor is putting together a student showcase next month for our class as well as another class by a favorite performer of mine. Between the day job sucking the life out of me and the.. well, the fun we have on the weekends, I simply have not had time to finish my costume or practice anything resembling choreography. I e-mailed my instructor today telling her that if they need a stage kitten I’m in, but I’m not going to have my act together. Rather than drive out there and cut into rehearsal time for the other 3 ladies who have their acts lined up and ready to roll, I’m staying home tonight.
I’m not giving up, but am accepting that I’m just not in a place to make this happen right now. Makes me sad, but it’s better than getting on stage and half-assing it.
Back to the hamster wheel.
Poly People Problems*
*First off- I hate the term “poly” but that’s another rant I’ll save for later.
Secondly, I love alliteration.
Here’s the short version:
Couple A: non-monogamous for many years. Friends of ours for quite awhile. Wife A had an almost thing with My Mr. They are still close friends.
Couple B: Newly open.
Husband A and Wife B are dating. Wife B was Husband A’s date to our last discussion and I thought she was great.
Wife A and Husband B were dating.. ‘ish. Wife A was going to bring Husband B to tonight’s discussion group then told My Mr. that they were cooling off and that he was taking a break from the non-monogamy stuff. Wife B changed her RSVP over the weekend to be just her.
This morning Husband B messaged both of us on OkC. The message was light, friendly and a little flirty. Husband B is just as cute as his wife.
This afternoon Wife A changed her RSVP again and told My Mr. that’s she’s bringing Husband B tonight.
My Mr. was struggling with whether or not to tell Wife B about the OkC messages. I said that telling her tonight wouldn’t help anything and that we should see how Husband B behaves before deciding what or if to divulge.
The question is whether this was all a coincidence,or if Husband B is using Wife B to meet us. We won’t really know until they get here, but I’m curious how this might look to an outside party?
When people say to a boy "That’s for girls"
There seems to be an implication that liking or associating with anything feminine or girly is wrong and somehow beneath them.
When people say to a girl "That’s for boys"
There seems to be an implication that they must remember their place.
What a great perspective to share for tonight’s discussion!
And in other news…
I went to my first rope event last weekend. BF1 was there as was his ‘rope spirit animal.’ To say I enjoyed myself is an understatement. The next night we went to a Kink 101 event and I learned that ‘thuddy’ can be as good as ‘stingy.’
I’ve been really worn out this week, but have a lot going on. We are hosting our discussion group tomorrow night: “Gender and Judgements” I’ll add the link to our jumping off point at the bottom.
Thursday is my last burlesque class but I’m pretty sure I’m not going to be stage ready for the October show the instructor is trying to put together.
My day job continues to frustrate me to no end.
I got tired of random spammy messages on MeetUp and removed my picture from all but our group and today it hit me that the kinds of messages like I get on OkC a lot are just the internet version of being catcalled. I was all ranty about it, but now that I’ve got a full belly and comfy couch I’m just too tired to think about it all.
Time to re-watch the TedTalk and prep for tomorrow night.